Long Day

Long Day, is all I have to say about today.  I have been sick the last few days and today was miserable.  I of course had a thousand things to do and a million things I forgot to do that I had to hurry and fit in to today along with it all.  Dan was in Utah all day yesterday and that put both of our littles in a funk.  They were ornery and demanding and Russell was captain fits.  Today started out a lot better and we did a lot of shopping and for the most part they were pretty good, they were normal 2 year old good LOL.  Rachel is really starting to develop into this beautiful sweet little girl.  I am enjoying her more and more everyday.  I cannot wait for Russ to hit that point. We had a Christmas concert thing for Blake tonight which with how icky I was feeling Dan kept telling me to not go but I wanted him to have the experience so I went.  Huge mistake on my part.  We should have just stayed home.  Russ threw a fit the whole way in, over what you may ask???  Only heaven knows because nothing I did made it any better until I lost my temper and just picked him up with his arms pinned down  so he couldn't hit or scratch me and after a few minutes of that he calmed down into a comfortable scowl.  He calmed down for the concert which Blake just sat and stared during, he barely even moved a muscle then had to go potty and missed the last three songs, then we left and he threw a fit all the way home.  I was thinking about it though and he has actually gotten a lot better about so many things.  He is no longer destructive, he hasn't hit or bit in forever either.  He is just full of fits over EVERYTHING.  I am not exaggerating either.  Holding my hand, not holding my hand etc. over anything.  Hahaha, I almost forgot to tell the most hilarious part of tonight.  An incredibly sweet and amazing woman from our ward came over tonight to bring us a treat and she was looking at some pictures next to our kitchen table and Russ starts sliding a chair into her.  If looks could kill too, he did not want her there apparently.  I gave him a stern look and he turned that "loving" look to me and fell to the floor pouting.  If it wasn't so pathetic it would have been funny.  Someday when this kid grows up it will be the highlight of my life to tell all his stories to his girlfriends.  Yesterday was a day so full of blessings for my family and I that I don't even want to write about what a stink Russ was.  We did have a family home evening where we watched the movie of Christ's birth and everyone was so reverent for it and the spirit was strong.  I relish those moments.  Ultimately it is almost Christmas and everyone is excited and no one wants to do what they are supposed to and I feel irritated.  It is impossible to get anything done I swear!  I am so crazy excited about what I got all the kids for Christmas especially Russell.  I have looked long and hard and am so so excited to what he thinks of his new things.  Rachel was a whole different story.  I could have bought her everything in sight!!  I settled on just a few things but it was killing me!!  I would end up with my cart full of girl things then had to weed out to the 5 gifts we agreed upon.  But dishes HAVE to go with a kitchen, right??  So that is one gift, and a new baby has to go with her new baby bed too right??  So maybe a fudged a little bit with her but in all fairness we have a billion boy toys and hardly any girl stuff, we need to catch up :P  I also noticed today how little people say things to me anymore.  It used to be everywhere we went we had some say something.  I don't get that anymore which is a huge relief and I was trying to put my finger on what changed and I really think it is because we are now so comfortable together, we don't stand out because it is not a huge ordeal for me to go out, I am used to it and so are they.  It is a nice break.  I felt a bit like a freak show and having people constantly point it out to me just reaffirmed it.  I like blending into the background and we are there again.  My highest concerns lately are for Blake.  His teacher think maybe Aspbergers, I don't know how to spell it, sorry.  He can be so impossible and frustrating but I sure love his cute little blonde head!  Once we adopt the twins I will start posting pictures.